Youth Isn't Always Wasted On The Young

We were watching a replay episode of NBC's Today Show and the Today's Concert Series guest was Dashboard Confessional (this episode was last Thursday I think) and of course I watched it. Anyway it they were playing Hands Down as their last song and since it is a pretty popular and good song even I was singing along. And when the camera was showing the ground you could see the teens singing along. My mom commented saying "Diyan sila magaling" (That's what they are good at). She was talking about the audience and their response by the way.

The thought just occured to me while I was washing the dishes after dinner and after watching the replay of this weeks One Tree Hill episode entitled "With Tired Eyes, Tired Minds, Tired Souls, We Slept". There was this girl named Abby Brown, one of the hostages in the room, who said:

"What's wrong with you? He's just a kid. We're all just kids and we just have this life and the things you say and do, we feel that. How can you have so much hate in your heart? How can you act like it doesn't matter? It does matter. What happened to us? We're just kids. We can't be like this. It's not possible."

Kids... that is what we still pretty much are. That is still what I am. I am still the child who is scared of the dangers and obstacles in the real world. I'm still scared of the real world. I still crave my parents approval. I still look upon others at times when I do not know what the heck I am even doing.

In less then a week I am going to be somehow placed in a different category again... I'll be seen as a true blue "young adult" even if my insides aren't prepared for the transition.

And I feel inside me that I am not prepared. I'm still a kid. Those singing along to Dashboard Confessional are still kids. We equate youth with carefreeness yet somehow we force the teens to grow up too fast, most of the times unwittingly so.

The exact comment my mom made is not really of that much importance. What it implies is what matters. Adults force us to be just like them. Sometimes they want us to be better than them so they could live vicariously through us.

We are the youth I understand that. We have responsibilities as we grow up I know that. I just wish that they'd cut us some slack sometimes. We get what goes on around us most of the time. We know how to be serious sometimes we punish ourselves even more than they do.

You say we don't understand the world. Maybe from your perspective. Don't you think that we are developing our own understanding?

My Journ professor Sir Esguerra said that we should not judge yesterday's newspapers by today's standards. Shouldn't that be the same too with other aspects? Like adolescent exuberance perhaps? I just want to repeat what Abby said... "We're all just kids and we just have this life and the things you say and do, we feel that."

Didn't Get In

I didn't get into this year's council... too bad... just received the email this afternoon... but there is something funny about the situation though... it is something I have always wanted and I didn't get it yet I'm not really that sad... a bit disappointed perhaps but it doesn't make me want to give up everything all together... I feel a bit inspired by it I guess... it makes me want to work harder on everything else maybe next year it would be my time. Who knows?

I know I'll work there in a few years... I can feel it. I really need to grow more I guess... I have more to do. Maybe that is a good thing, maybe I need to experience that one thing I was about to give up first.

I guess the signature on my Teen Talk account holds true:

"Whatever I really need, I already have and whatever I don't have will come to me when I am ready to receive it..."

This too:

It is madness... to hate all roses because you got scratched with one thorn, to give up on your dreams because one didn't come true, to lose faith in prayers because one was not answered, to give up on your efforts because one of them failed, to condemn all you friends because one betrayed you, not to believe in love because someone was unfaithful or didn't love you back, to throw away all your chances to be happy because you didn't succeed on the first attempt. I hope that as you go on your way you don't give up... TRUST GOD.

Let's just see what happens...

Little Update

I was at Candy yesterday! Technically anyway... we were in a seminar room of some sort. I was one of the interviewees at this Click Here! The editors were so nice and cool!

It was fun... exciting... I'm dropping something though... whether or not I get the gig up there... I'm giving up one thing. I really really want that... if the Candy editors pass by this!!!

Been busy... been hectic... still scared... just a little update since I'm in the Computer lab right now... given permission to browse since I'm done with our exercise...

I'd better go... it is Meg's debut tomorrow... I'll be at SM San Lazaro after class with Edree and Ana... Edree's buying a gift for Meg. Better go! Bye!