It Keeps Me Happy

I'm functioning on a cup of tea and a bottle of water. I was up at 5 this morning because I knew I had to finish the paper for my Info Tech in the Newsroom class. I have no time for dilly-dallying. I've been averaging 6 hours of sleep this week. That's terrible for me because I love my 8 hours a night sleep. I miss it but I've been kept happy by the most trivial of things.

The sunrise has been my friend. I would not have said that before because mornings used to be my enemy but I've come to appreciate and love them now. It gives me warmth and hope that the day would be a great one. I'm trying to cultivate my optimism.

ARASHI's still LOVE. Ohmiya's still LOOOVEEE and MatsuJun's SEX. LOL Well he is! Their songs and shows have kept me perky and happy. I've been battling with my inner demons a.k.a. my emotions and they have been my salvation. It's been a great stress reliever. I'm thankful to Johnny and the rest Johnny Entertainment for giving us the five pretty boys. Now if they only sold legal Arashi merchandise here... I'm still praying and hoping for that.

Friends and family have also kept me sane. From the recent demands of my academic life, they have been my shelter. The load isn't that demanding yet but it's beginning to build up momentum.

Songs have continued to be refuge as well. Arashi's La Tormenta 2004 is my current hype me up song. Avril's new song When You're Gone is something I'm in love with. Love the chorus... it's a sad song but it makes me happy. Amy Winehouse's Tears Dry On Their Own is rather fitting for me and I LOVE IT.

I have found that hidden passion for my profession yesterday. That's keeping me happy. I had a practical exam for the Philippine Daily Inquirer's University Scholarship where we had to interview and write a feature story on the chief of the Research Section of PDI. Ma'am Miner was nice and despite the harrowing feeling of trying to meet the deadline, I actually had fun.

In retrospect, I knew that this moment would come down in history. I actually got to experience typing inside a newsroom. The newsroom of the biggest newspaper publication no less. It was cool and I believe I gave what I could despite the pressure. We were there at 5 in the afternoon and finished the interview-slash-press con scenario in the Inquirer's research dept at 6. I finished the article at 8. The time limit was probably midnight or something. We just had to pass it to Sir Yambot (the PDI publisher) that night. It was eye opening and inspiring. I can never describe the feeling of being in there amidst practicing newsmen. It's rather fascinating.

I was talking about battling with my demons earlier and it was put into words through a quote I received last night.

When things seem too good to be true, it's because of one thing: It's about to break your heart.

I found things that made me happy and I think that kept my emotions at bay. Because my friendship with a certain boy reached the point where I know that friendship was all he could offer me. It was too good to be true. It doesn't matter that the moment didn't last long. I knew something was wrong. Okay now my pessimism is surfacing. I was prepared for this. It is even in this entry HERE. I'm just letting the emotion pass through me. It hasn't hit as hard and that surprises me a bit. The anticipation probably prepared me for the actual thing. Good for me... HAHA

In Amy Winehouse's words:

I don't know why I got so attached
It's my responsibility
You don't owe nothing to me
But to walk away I have no capacity

He walks away the sun goes down
He takes the day but I'm grown
And in your way,
In this blue shade
My tears dry on their own

I don't understand
Why do I stress a man?
When there's so many better things at hand
We could've never had it all
We had to hit a wall
So this is inevitable withdrawal
Even if I stop wanting you
and perspective pushes through
I'll be some next man's other woman soon
I shouldn't play myself again
I should just be my own best friend.
Not fuck myself in the head with stupid men

I love that last line. Okay I should stop here...

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This will be a new feature on my blog. Since I want to spread Arashi love every entry would have my favorite picture of the moment. This one takes this entry hands down... one of the hottest Arashi pics I have seen. o.O Credit: lea26karla.livejournal.com

A Dashboard and Dashboard Confessional

A dashboard maybe defined as a panel under the windshield of a vehicle, containing indicator dials, compartments, and sometimes control instruments. Dashboard Confessional got their name from one of their songs, "The Sharp Hint of New Tears." According to Wikipedia and all the other internet sources, the name was supposed to be for the lead singer-songwriter Chris Carrabba (my second husband after Orlando Bloom! HAHA) but he often had his friends with him when he played and so he made the line-up permanent.

I've always wondered about the meaning of dashboard. I know where it is in a car but I have no idea what it actually does. If you're a Blogger user you're familiar with this word because in order to modify your blog you would be clicking this link that says DASHBOARD. I finally looked it up (my grandfather would be happy) and it's description made sense.

A dashboard controls and keeps things. In this blogger's case, Blogger controls and keeps all of my ideas. It helps me compartmentalize and send those ideas out into the world. Blogger's dashboard helps me think straight. It's my little online guide to blogging.

As for the Dashboard Confessional thing, well I've been listening a lot to them. I thank the person who introduced me to Hands Down so many years ago because after that song I was just floored by the band. And when I saw how gorgeous Chris is, I know I will forever love the band!

No matter how many people say that they're too emo or whatever I don't really care. I don't know how he does it but Chris manages to passionately sing about emotions. It just grabs me and I take it all in... hook, line and sinker.

Hottie Of The Month - April

I don't want to think of anything too complex to write about so I decided to finally begin my own little homage to the beautiful people who populate the planet. Okay that's just an excuse. I just want to ogle at gorgeous men and women for some time... now for the month of April.

Female Hottie Of The Month

Katharine Hope McPhee

a.k.a.

Katharine McPhee

The beautiful finalist from American Idol Season 5. The 23-year-old Los Angeles native stole the hearts of AI viewers and is now captivating the world with her self-titled debut that has produced the hit "Over It". She battled with an eating disorder and she managed to win the battle. The Pop/R&B singer let's her talent speak for herself. She has even gained more popularity than AI winner Taylor Hicks. According to RCA Records, Katharine admits that she likes to smoke a cigarette once in a blue moon. She explains, "It just makes you feel sexy... is that bad?" If Katharine continues to follow her heart and does what she believes would make her happy then this hottie would probably be in the spotlight for a long time. With her talent, beauty, spontaneity and spunk how can she go wrong?

Male Hottie Of The Month

Paolo Giovanni Nutini

a.k.a

Paolo Nutini

The 20-year-old singer/songwriter was born in Paisley, Scotland. He may have the Italian sounding name but the Nutini family has been living in Scotland for over four generations already. Paolo's musical education began when his late grandfather introduced him to Scottish folk songs and other styles. Paolo has the natural, passionate and soulful voice that has the ability to capture his audience's attention. With his ability to tell a story through song, the gorgeous Scottish singer released his debut album entitled "These Streets" has reached #3 in the UK charts and #48 in the US charts. It's a good thing he did not follow his father's footsteps and headed into the family's fish and chips business. That would have been such a loss for the music industry. It would have been a real waste...

Katharine McPhee info and picture:

• katharinemcphee.com
• en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Katharine_McPhee

Paolo Nutini info and picture:

• paolonutini.com
• en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paolo_Nutini