You Go Girl!

A new month is creeping in so it is time for a new layout! I'm going for the whole "WOMAN EMPOWERMENT" thing... it is just fun! And this song is really cool! This song seriously uplifts me! It just makes me go "That's right sister!" haha

"Single"

Natasha Bedingfield

Ah yeah that's right
All you single people out there
This is for you
I'm not waitin' around for a man to save me (Cos I'm happy where I am)
Don't depend on a guy to validate me (No no)
I don't need to be anyone's baby (Is that so hard to understand?)
No I don't need another half to make me whole
Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't
[Chorus:]This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant
I'm single (Right now)
That's how I wanna be
I'm single (Right now)
That's how I wanna be
Ah yeah Uh Huh that's right
Don't need to be on somebody's arm to look good (I like who I am)
I'm not saying I don't wanna fall in love 'cos I would
I'm not gonna get hooked up just 'cos you say I should (Can't romance on demand)
I'm gonna wait so I'm sorry if you misunderstood
[Repeat Chorus]
Everything in it's right time everything in it's right place
I know I'll settle down one day
But 'til then I like it this way it's my way
Eh I like it this way
Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't
'Til then I'm single
This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant

Today is just one of those rarely available days where I feel good... well maybe because it is the weekend... rest time... especially since I don't have ROTC tomorrow!!!!!! WOOHOO!!! haha

Well another week has passed by me and it testify's that life passes by so fast... it has already been a few months since I opened this journal... since I graduated from highschool... and now the semester is almost over... all I can say is whoa... well at least during the sem break I get to see my friends!! YEHEY!!! I can't really think of any interesting stories today so I better go now!

*kisses*
nikki

Different Head Space

Why does my head always head towards a different galaxy? I can't concentrate on studying as usual and so I will be cramming again. ARGH! I so hate it when I space out!

Rembert kasi e pinaisip mo nanaman ako! hehe sorry dude sinisi pa kita! Well the two of us are still looking for our "special someone's" and I am back into this conversation in my head again. Although I don't really feel it that much anymore. I only feel a bit that there is something wrong with me because I don't have a relationship or because no guy takes interest WHATSOEVER. Love has always been eluding me and well I guess I am maturing and realizing that it isn't that important in my life right now... or I should rephrase and say that I shouldn't dwell on something that doesn't want to dwell in me...

Oh well... that is all for now... I don't feel like writing slash typing anymore... bye for now my lovely audience!

*kisses*
nikki

Alone In A World Filled With People

I am so happy because the prelims are so over!! haha well except for my philo prelims which will be two weeks from now so I don't really have to worry about that... I am half way thru the semester... haha... man time sure flies by...

I remember how I was so anxious right before classes start... only a few months have passed since high school and my life has changed so drastically that it scares me a bit... okay it scares me a lot... especially all the change... I changed a lot... my friends changed... my surroundings and they way I handle things... it is so freakin' scary really...

I used to love going out and just hang out at different places... but this year I have lost the will to do so... I don't know why... maybe I am still reeling over the whole change and suddenly my studies have taken center stage in my life... I love my classmates... they are as nice as hell and they're a cool bunch seriously... but I still can't help feeling left out... I feel like I am in my own alternate universe sometimes...

I just figured out what changed the most this year... well not really changed but this year has seriously been the loneliest year of my life... ironically I have a lot of new friends but I feel so ALONE... I am surrounded by so many people everyday yet I still feel so alone...

I don't tell my feelings to my friends... well if they would bother to read this then they would now know... I don't want to bother them with this and besides they don't have the time anymore... that is the biggest changed but then again of course you just have to let go... you can't hold on to something for so long... like they say the only constant thing in life is change... and that sucks... haha

But again who am I to challenge the power of nature... I just have to take things as they come... I have to learn to let go... I am so clingy... haha it just sucks though... hay... it sucks to be alone... it sucks to feel so lonely... oh well... life goes on right?! I'd just go right now okay... bye!

*kisses*
nikki