Today something happened that made me believe in signs and coincidences... well it was last night actually but you get my point. Last night at around ten o clock my brother called. He's in Merville at my lola's house hanging out with friends. Anyway well nangungulit lang siya but then I can hear in the background my tito and titas were telling him to give me the number in Makati Med because my mom was staying the night there not that my mom is sick it is actually her sister so my tita... I don't know what it happening with her but I do hope she gets better... anyway, I was actually the only one home last night because my dad went to the Rotary to deal with work... this hasn't been the first time I was left at home alone so I am pretty cool about it.
Anyway let's continue... as I said my kuya gave me the tel. number of the room of my tita and I didn't right it down frankly I thought that it just was no use to write it down my mom was only there for one night and my dad will be home in a few hours... so well I continued watching Entertainment Tonight after he called then I just went to bed.
We have two phones here at home one in our bedroom and in my dad's work area that belongs to us and another one in my tito's room. I am actually sleeping in my tito's room because he is vacationing in Australia... just like what my dad did last year at their sister's home... at my tita's home... anyway I hear the fax machine ringing in my dad's work area and I checked the clock it was about quarter to one so grudgingly I get up to answer it because I sort of thought that my dad wasn't home yet then I was suddenly talking to one of my dad's colleagues and he said that my dad had an accident... I remember when I told my friends I had an accident they thought that I was hit by a car or something... because I guess when you say accident it means something severe... anyway I was sort of thinking that he tripped or something because my dad has polio. He was born with it and his right leg is so much smaller well not smaller it is just really thin it is like skin then the bones already... anyway I was right and they brought him to the hospital and said that he was having his xray and they were waiting for the anesthesiologist. At first I didn't think of it that much but then while I was getting into bed I was really worried because why the hell would they need one?!
Anyway, she wanted me to call my mom and then call her back on her cell then *boom* (hehe may effects pa...) it hit me I SHOULD HAVE WRITTEN THE NUMBER DOWN! It was unbelievable. I was a bit sweaty and a bit teary-eyed I didn't know what to do! It was past one and I didn't have the number only my family at Merville new... so I gathered up my courage and called them one o clock in the morning just to ask for the number at the hospital... after three rings luckily another coincidence or just luck my other tita picked up and I was able to get the number I was able to contact my mom.
It was just unbelievable how it all works really. I was so stupid not to follow it the first time. It made me believe in these signs and coincidences. I say this because I read this book before entitled Small Miracles. It was a collection of stories regarding coincidences and how they became "miracles" in these people's lives.
I learned my lesson and my dad arrived at around quarter to five in the morning (meaning almost no sleep for me...) and well he fractured something near he's ankle I heard him say to the driver that luckly he didn't fracture his ankle because he has to undergo surgery if he did... God does work mysteriously and I thank him for not putting anymore harm in my dad... I am very thankful... well I will go for now... still have to eat breakfast... my eyes hurt by the way...
*kisses*
nikki
P.S. Sorry for the long entry... : )
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Monday, April 25, 2005
I'm Going Crazy For Orli!!!
It is so friggin hot... it gets so annoying!! I even went out today to request a recommendation and good moral from my alma mater because I need it to apply for the scholarship... I do hope I get it... we need the money...
Wow I have an alma mater... : ) it is unbelievable that I already graduated from a school... it is cool... a bit daunting but cool...
It really is hot that I can't really think straight! I want to go to the mall or just some restaurant or any place with aircon and just hang out there because this heat is seriously draining me!
I can't wait to watch the Kingdom of Heaven staring my sweetie Orlando Bloom... bwahahaha hehe I'm sorry it is just that when it comes to him I get so crazy... : ) he's my ultimate dude! Before I was about to sleep last night I stumbled upon ETC and the show was ET Weekend and they were counting down Hollywood's Top Ten Most Eligible Bachelors and my sweetie is at number 5 I swear I was so..... KILIG!!!!!!!! hehe sorry for the slang but that is the only word to describe what I feel about this guy! GOSH!!!! hehe for me he is the number one on the list! Hmmm... he is a happy part of my life and when I see him all I do is focus on him... : ) I know this sounds pathetic but I am completely in love with this guy!!! Not love in the sense of what I was talking about in my last entry... you get what I mean! I so have this huge crush on him!!! OMG!!! When I see him on tv, movies and in pictures I just can't help but stare... he is really my weakness hahaha!! *drools* hehe you guys should see me I have this wierd goofy grin when I see him and I know it looks embarassing but hey I AM JUST TOTALLY IN LOVE! : )
Back to the real world... that was me daydreaming... drifting off despite this HEAT!!!!! grrr.... anyway... I still am happy! So if y'all want to cheer me up just mention his name or show me a picture of him! haha sounds crazy but I guess that is just how I am... CRAZY FOR ORLANDO BLOOM!!!!! ; )
*kisses*
nikki
Wow I have an alma mater... : ) it is unbelievable that I already graduated from a school... it is cool... a bit daunting but cool...
It really is hot that I can't really think straight! I want to go to the mall or just some restaurant or any place with aircon and just hang out there because this heat is seriously draining me!
I can't wait to watch the Kingdom of Heaven staring my sweetie Orlando Bloom... bwahahaha hehe I'm sorry it is just that when it comes to him I get so crazy... : ) he's my ultimate dude! Before I was about to sleep last night I stumbled upon ETC and the show was ET Weekend and they were counting down Hollywood's Top Ten Most Eligible Bachelors and my sweetie is at number 5 I swear I was so..... KILIG!!!!!!!! hehe sorry for the slang but that is the only word to describe what I feel about this guy! GOSH!!!! hehe for me he is the number one on the list! Hmmm... he is a happy part of my life and when I see him all I do is focus on him... : ) I know this sounds pathetic but I am completely in love with this guy!!! Not love in the sense of what I was talking about in my last entry... you get what I mean! I so have this huge crush on him!!! OMG!!! When I see him on tv, movies and in pictures I just can't help but stare... he is really my weakness hahaha!! *drools* hehe you guys should see me I have this wierd goofy grin when I see him and I know it looks embarassing but hey I AM JUST TOTALLY IN LOVE! : )
Back to the real world... that was me daydreaming... drifting off despite this HEAT!!!!! grrr.... anyway... I still am happy! So if y'all want to cheer me up just mention his name or show me a picture of him! haha sounds crazy but I guess that is just how I am... CRAZY FOR ORLANDO BLOOM!!!!! ; )
*kisses*
nikki
Sunday, April 24, 2005
I'm Back!
It is me again... this is the first time I realized how much I missed blogging... it has been such a long time since I last posted because I was having the hell of a time at school... I didn't neglect my private journal so much but this I did... I am sorry but this is too much of a temptation... and that whole crazy life style changed after graduation... now I am pretty much bumming around the house and it is just so cool... haha I even unleashed my inner bum this summer... ; )
School was so eventful... especially graduation... the days before that... it was amazing... it was sad but amazing... I do have to say that I am proud of myself and I am going to boast for awhile but before that be warned this will be a bit long I don't know why but a lot of things are running about 90 miles per hour (whatda?! where did that come from! I don't even know the equivalent to that ahaha!!!) okay let us just say things words are flying through my head at a very fast pace... anyway I am waaay of the topic... I said about being boastful because during the grad I gave the welcoming remarks... it made me so proud hehe although all I said were just a few "welcoming words" but hey it is still a big deal... I was still chosen.. and I am proud of myself because I was one of the recipients of the General Excellence Award... actually like Ms. Brozo told me she was expecting that I'd be one of those who got it because I am the EIC well retired EIC (haha) what connection you may ask? Well for the past ten or whatever years the editor in chief of the Angelicum Nth was always one of the recipients of this award... it is pretty cool and I guess all my goddamn work for the past year paid off... : ) yehey for me! hahaha
Wow and now I am enrolled in UST hehe Rembert magkasama nanaman tayo haha! Steeg by the way Rembert hats off to you astig ng mga drawings mo e!! Kakaelibs... unluckily or luckily I was not given the gift of the paintbrush (aka drawing) heck the only thing I can draw are stick people! And remember those books where you trace the drawing with this type of paper... that I can do well! haha Anyway check out where he posts his drawings he is in my friends list check it out for yourself... oo nga pala dude may cell ka na ba? At promise ko sayo next week hindi na si Orlando ang skin ko... hehe next time na lang ulit haha susunod naman flowers hehehe joke lang... basta watch out for it na lang... : )
Back to the UST thing... I am nervous... college scares me but just check out what I wrote in the past entry... it is connected to this... I really can't do anything about it...
Onto the next things running through my mind... since I disappeared for like a very long time I read the past entries of Rianne hey best whattup?! hehe pardon my words I just don't know where they are friggin coming from... : ) I was reading about what you have been up to since the last time we caught up with each other... medyo na confuse ako sino nga ba si "ex"? si chocnut? si friendster dude si angelicum guy di ba? Anyhoo... I even read yung entry mo Rembert sa journal nung site... I just realized with these posts that man love is really that hard to deal with isn't it? It makes you feel so worthless and inferior yet at the same time with the right kind of love it makes you feel like the luckiest person on earth... how do I know that it feels like that? I don't...
Wierd answer because like Rianne I am a NBSB... No Boyfriend Since Birth... actually I consider myself NRRWSB... No Romantic Relationship Whatsoever Since Birth... hehe it is funny really... you might be asking yourself right now how can someone who never found love say so much bull about it? Actually I think I did find it but I have nothing to compare it to except for the observations of the people around me... I still don't get it how it comes so easily for me to "preach" or "badmouth" love when I haven't even seen it with my own eyes... I guess it maybe because love isn't in the eyes it is in the heart... I guess I have love... love from my friends... love from my family and love from God... but you all know what kind of love I am talking about...
I still don't get it really... Rembert I know I am butting into your business but hey don't blame me you posted it and well I am pretty nosy which is a bad thing that I have to get rid of (bad nikki) but still even if it is wrong to butt into your business you must remember that I am a friend... I love yah dude! Anyway... one person posted a comment about that and she is right... don't let anyone make you feel insignificant... I think it was Eleanor Roosevelt (tama ba spelling ko? hehe) who said "You can never let anyone make you feel inferior without your consent..." it is true... don't hold on to someone who makes you feel so bad about yourself... it is hard and I have said this to a couple of people and to myself so many times but the first thing you must do is let go or just try to... never get so hung up... in the end you will realize that it just isn't worth it and that as she said... just wait... that is the one thing I have learned through out my NRRWSB thing... wait because pardon me for sounding cheesy but... nothing good comes overnight... love is out there waiting for you to just stay put... open your heart... receive the love... if it hurts you try to open it up again and remove the pain but don't stitch it up or lock it up... let it heal... let it leave a scar even but make sure that you will open it up again for maybe the next time you do it would be the one that you are looking for... it is uncertain but in our world nothing really is... dude you can do it! I can do it! We all can do it! It sucks BIG TIME but that is just how it is... just work with it... again I'm sorry for invading on such a personal matter but my only reason is to help and come to think of it your entry and Rianne's past entries have helped me so much to realize what I am supposed to give up and what I should wait and hope for... never give up hope pre!
Rianne!!!! Ikaw naman... I'm in my Charo Santos mode ika nga ni Cheryl... I am having an enlightining afternoon... actually what I told Rembert is what I want to tell you... you both are amazing people and don't let other people say otherwise... listen but decide on your own... OMG I really am in my Charo Santos mode this afternoon... pardon to all of you but this for me is an important matter... this just don't head out to my to good friends but to everyone out there in the same situation... this is for all of us... hope I gave you something to think about... I am the love "not so expert" expert... I know that is ridiculous but I am feeling ridiculous...
Sorry for this long entry but at least the words in my head are slowing down... 'til the next entry! Bye!!!! : )
*kisses*
nikki
School was so eventful... especially graduation... the days before that... it was amazing... it was sad but amazing... I do have to say that I am proud of myself and I am going to boast for awhile but before that be warned this will be a bit long I don't know why but a lot of things are running about 90 miles per hour (whatda?! where did that come from! I don't even know the equivalent to that ahaha!!!) okay let us just say things words are flying through my head at a very fast pace... anyway I am waaay of the topic... I said about being boastful because during the grad I gave the welcoming remarks... it made me so proud hehe although all I said were just a few "welcoming words" but hey it is still a big deal... I was still chosen.. and I am proud of myself because I was one of the recipients of the General Excellence Award... actually like Ms. Brozo told me she was expecting that I'd be one of those who got it because I am the EIC well retired EIC (haha) what connection you may ask? Well for the past ten or whatever years the editor in chief of the Angelicum Nth was always one of the recipients of this award... it is pretty cool and I guess all my goddamn work for the past year paid off... : ) yehey for me! hahaha
Wow and now I am enrolled in UST hehe Rembert magkasama nanaman tayo haha! Steeg by the way Rembert hats off to you astig ng mga drawings mo e!! Kakaelibs... unluckily or luckily I was not given the gift of the paintbrush (aka drawing) heck the only thing I can draw are stick people! And remember those books where you trace the drawing with this type of paper... that I can do well! haha Anyway check out where he posts his drawings he is in my friends list check it out for yourself... oo nga pala dude may cell ka na ba? At promise ko sayo next week hindi na si Orlando ang skin ko... hehe next time na lang ulit haha susunod naman flowers hehehe joke lang... basta watch out for it na lang... : )
Back to the UST thing... I am nervous... college scares me but just check out what I wrote in the past entry... it is connected to this... I really can't do anything about it...
Onto the next things running through my mind... since I disappeared for like a very long time I read the past entries of Rianne hey best whattup?! hehe pardon my words I just don't know where they are friggin coming from... : ) I was reading about what you have been up to since the last time we caught up with each other... medyo na confuse ako sino nga ba si "ex"? si chocnut? si friendster dude si angelicum guy di ba? Anyhoo... I even read yung entry mo Rembert sa journal nung site... I just realized with these posts that man love is really that hard to deal with isn't it? It makes you feel so worthless and inferior yet at the same time with the right kind of love it makes you feel like the luckiest person on earth... how do I know that it feels like that? I don't...
Wierd answer because like Rianne I am a NBSB... No Boyfriend Since Birth... actually I consider myself NRRWSB... No Romantic Relationship Whatsoever Since Birth... hehe it is funny really... you might be asking yourself right now how can someone who never found love say so much bull about it? Actually I think I did find it but I have nothing to compare it to except for the observations of the people around me... I still don't get it how it comes so easily for me to "preach" or "badmouth" love when I haven't even seen it with my own eyes... I guess it maybe because love isn't in the eyes it is in the heart... I guess I have love... love from my friends... love from my family and love from God... but you all know what kind of love I am talking about...
I still don't get it really... Rembert I know I am butting into your business but hey don't blame me you posted it and well I am pretty nosy which is a bad thing that I have to get rid of (bad nikki) but still even if it is wrong to butt into your business you must remember that I am a friend... I love yah dude! Anyway... one person posted a comment about that and she is right... don't let anyone make you feel insignificant... I think it was Eleanor Roosevelt (tama ba spelling ko? hehe) who said "You can never let anyone make you feel inferior without your consent..." it is true... don't hold on to someone who makes you feel so bad about yourself... it is hard and I have said this to a couple of people and to myself so many times but the first thing you must do is let go or just try to... never get so hung up... in the end you will realize that it just isn't worth it and that as she said... just wait... that is the one thing I have learned through out my NRRWSB thing... wait because pardon me for sounding cheesy but... nothing good comes overnight... love is out there waiting for you to just stay put... open your heart... receive the love... if it hurts you try to open it up again and remove the pain but don't stitch it up or lock it up... let it heal... let it leave a scar even but make sure that you will open it up again for maybe the next time you do it would be the one that you are looking for... it is uncertain but in our world nothing really is... dude you can do it! I can do it! We all can do it! It sucks BIG TIME but that is just how it is... just work with it... again I'm sorry for invading on such a personal matter but my only reason is to help and come to think of it your entry and Rianne's past entries have helped me so much to realize what I am supposed to give up and what I should wait and hope for... never give up hope pre!
Rianne!!!! Ikaw naman... I'm in my Charo Santos mode ika nga ni Cheryl... I am having an enlightining afternoon... actually what I told Rembert is what I want to tell you... you both are amazing people and don't let other people say otherwise... listen but decide on your own... OMG I really am in my Charo Santos mode this afternoon... pardon to all of you but this for me is an important matter... this just don't head out to my to good friends but to everyone out there in the same situation... this is for all of us... hope I gave you something to think about... I am the love "not so expert" expert... I know that is ridiculous but I am feeling ridiculous...
Sorry for this long entry but at least the words in my head are slowing down... 'til the next entry! Bye!!!! : )
*kisses*
nikki
It Ain't Over But It's A Work In Progress...
Hey! First of all my apologies to Rembert... hehe sorry weakness ko kasi yang si Orli mag tiyaga ka na lang muna hahahaha wait for the next month pero tulad nga ng sabi ko slightly "girly" pa rin... : )
Hmmm... well I should say that the song trip dedicated to this one guy is over... there will still be heartbroken songs but as I said in my past blog... I am in the stage of recovery so just bear with me... it is hard really especially when people around you are still not convinced that you are over this "dude". Honestly, I am no really sure just like I said in the title "it ain't over but it's a work in progress" that is what I am trying to do and I hope that people understand... it is as hard as hell but I am trying... : )
I am moving on as I am trying to start a new phase in my life (college here I come)... I still am as nervous but Trey from Laguna Beach calmed me a bit because we sort of have the same sitch with going to college and everything he said something like, "I'm going to go through it anyway so what is the point..." he is right so just prayers from all of you!! ; ) That is all I need... I'll be going now... still have to wash dishes... 'til the next time!
*kisses*
nikki
Hmmm... well I should say that the song trip dedicated to this one guy is over... there will still be heartbroken songs but as I said in my past blog... I am in the stage of recovery so just bear with me... it is hard really especially when people around you are still not convinced that you are over this "dude". Honestly, I am no really sure just like I said in the title "it ain't over but it's a work in progress" that is what I am trying to do and I hope that people understand... it is as hard as hell but I am trying... : )
I am moving on as I am trying to start a new phase in my life (college here I come)... I still am as nervous but Trey from Laguna Beach calmed me a bit because we sort of have the same sitch with going to college and everything he said something like, "I'm going to go through it anyway so what is the point..." he is right so just prayers from all of you!! ; ) That is all I need... I'll be going now... still have to wash dishes... 'til the next time!
*kisses*
nikki
Friday, April 22, 2005
On Its Way...
Hello... = ) I am happy because this blog is on its way... I switched because I was having a hell of a time trying to fix up my older Tabulas blog... I just got so frustrated and so here I am now and so far so good I am pretty happy... I will share stories of my "exciting" life another time... See y'all...
*kisses*
nikki
*kisses*
nikki
Thursday, April 21, 2005
Welcome
I would like to formally greet you all (wait deja vu... hehe) anyway bear with me for awhile I am still fixing it up a bit... see you all in a bit!!!
*kisses*
nikki
btw
if you want to know more about my past experiences check out my old blog there are a lot of entries and stuff there but please bear with it... www.tabulas.com/~nikki04 thanks!
*kisses*
nikki
btw
if you want to know more about my past experiences check out my old blog there are a lot of entries and stuff there but please bear with it... www.tabulas.com/~nikki04 thanks!
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