Oscar Watch

I'm watching the Oscars while I'm trying to write this. I just felt so stressed the whole entire day that I felt I was going to stay that way but watching the Oscars calmed me down a bit. I needed the serious distraction.

Gwyneth Paltrow and Nicole Kidman both had amazing hair. If you were able to catch the Oscars you would know what I'm talking about. It was just amazing. I'm itching to post Oscar pictures but I know that's just physically impossible for me to do that.

All I can say is that this has been one of the worst weeks yet. I am in need of serious vacation. I can't help but feel this way right now. Everything just keeps dragging and dragging on... I need salvation. Maybe I should just continue watching the Oscars now.

Creatively Stumped & Lacking Entertainment

I spent most of the day reading. I can't wait for vacation. I can't wait for all this academic chaos to die down. It's all just too crazy I tell you. I'm feeling the strain. I'm definitely feeling it.

I'm creatively stumped right now. No matter how much I miss writing and relaxing I just don't have the right to relax right now. I've made a huge sacrifice by not catching up with my favorite shows. Okay except for Lost and Heroes... HAHA all the other shows I'm watching faithfully like One Tree Hill, Friday Night Lights, Grey's Anatomy, Veronica Mars and the Friends DVD I borrowed from Tets are all buried somewhere that I'm going insane because I can't watch them. I just can't! I lack entertainment in my life! I miss the drama...

I feel so lame right now. No shows and all study and sleep. At least I still get to sleep. I shouldn't be wasting anymore time on this. I should go now. Bye!

Me? Ballroom Dance... Ha!

I'm knee deep into school work that it isn't funny. I'm trying to work my way slowly through it and now I'm just taking a bit of a break from it.

I was in school this morning because I had to practice with Tin for our Social Dance finals. It is almost over. I just want to get this PE class over with. I enjoy watching ballroom dancing and all but I lack the grace to successfully pull it off. I get by in class and all but I do admire the grace of the women who pull it off.

There is something so sensual and sexy about it. Like every other sport and talent, it takes a lot of practice to get to where the professional dancers get to. I've always been a frustrated dancer and singer. I satisfy my craving by listening to music and dancing to my beat. It's cheesy but I love it anyway.

I should probably go and get back to real life now. Keanu Reeves is so hot! I'm watching Constantine now so don't mind that comment.

Extending My Congratulations

Unable to write in again yesterday. I watched Ola Bayle, UST's first ballroom dance competition... I'm using this entry to congratulate a friend, they were the champions for Category 2 which was the Waltz and Tango.

Congratulations!
EDREE & JONATHAN

You two so deserve it. You've worked hard for it! You both looked great.

I just wanted to say that. I'll be back in a bit for today's entry. Bye!

I W Z

I feel so fat and bloated. That is such a girly statement I know. But that doesn't stop me from feeling that way. Blasted hormones.

I'm still pretty exhausted about school and everything involving it. Tomorrow's Ola Bayle though. I'll be able to relax and see my beloved college buddies and even Jhe perform. It would be an interesting afternoon.

Everyone in our class is standing on wits end with everything that needs to be accomplished. Meg was even commenting this morning about how we all started the year so exhausted and she's hoping beyond hope that we don't end the year the same way.

I want to sleep right now. That's all I really want to do but I'm trying to finish looking for people to survey. Do any of you have surname ending in the letters i, w, and z? This project is killing me.

Slave For... Fill In The Blank

My head is spinning with all the things I have to do. It isn't helping that we have quizzes every day. The responsibilities of someone who's expected to grow up is too much for me to handle. I miss lazing around. I miss being a kid.

I need the extra push these days because it is getting hard to accomplish anything when your heart isn't in it. Everyday is physically and mentally exhausting. I need help right now but I believe that this is one challenge I can overcome. All this work must be for something better. I know it is bad to expect but if there isn't anything better coming for me, I do not know what I'm doing right now.

It is hard to be a slave of something. Maybe if I work hard enough I could master it. I guess it is inevitable that we get dragged down by something in our lives every now and then. My academic responsibilities are pulling so hard my brain might leave me. I need a vacation.

USTv Student's Choice Awards

I wasn't able to write in last night because I got in late again. I attended the USTv Student's Choice Awards at the Medicine Auditorium. An entertaining and interesting night I must say.

A lot of people were dressed to kill that night. I guess being around celebrities has that effect on people. ABSCBN won a lot of awards that night.

The moment I enjoyed the most that night was when Abner Mercado (wait did I get his name right?) received the award for The Correspondents. Ana mentioned that a lot of the awardees recalled their collegiate days. Anyway... he talked about how he was supposed to take up Journalism in the University but he wasn't accepted. Then Arnold Calvio got up later that night and said... "Sorry Abner. Mataas ang standard namin." It was so hilarious.

Meg and Tets were going crazy because they both got to see John Lloyd in person. It was so crazy. Meg said she fell from her seat. I did not get to see that but with her actions that night I can't say that I wasn't surprised.

Mae was so turned off by Victor Basa. You see the Cover Boys from ASAP performed that night and all I can say about that is that their performance was a bad boy band impersonation. I admit that Jake Cuenca looked hot but I wish they just remain cover boys. I think it would really be better if they remained models.

I'm so hungry right now. I'm waiting for dinner so I'd better go. I'd write in a little later for my entry for today.

Blank

I'm on nerves about this whole Statistic project that we have to accomplish. We're supposed to call random people and conduct a survey. It is just so crazy but I somehow can't escape calling these random people. I'm so nervous though. I can't even think of anything to write about.

Our professors seem to be a little cruel now. I'm feeling a little on edge with all the school work that needs to be accomplished. I just stopped by to continue my obligation.

My mind is clearly drawing a blank. Nothing. I have nothing else to say. I still have a hangover with the TSITP thing though. I guess that's what keeping sane. How come I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulder but at the same time I feel so free?

I really should start working on this project now...

Being Just Happy

I've always been scared of expressing my feelings. The funny thing is I'm more afraid of showing how happy I am than of showing how pissed off and bothered I am toward a certain situation. Howie Day said it best in his song Collide:

"I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind..."

I'm afraid that I'll preempt that happiness. Wierd thought I know but somehow I can never bring myself around to fully express happiness. I'm ashamed to be happy at times... it scares the shit out of me to think that I might be happy because in the back of my mind that happiness wouldn't last.

I have a perfect example... I'm still giddy over the TSITP thing. I do find Mr. Archi very attractive and the thought actually excites me. I'm being a big groupie right now but I can't seem to rid the thought of the guy. The hormones are talking people! HAHA

Anyway, if I did not put that in here now I'll probably suppress that feeling somehow and destroy it with a horrible thought. Something that would negate the feeling a bit. I'm never contented with being happy. I always question it. That bugs me a lot.

I don't want to do it this time. I'm tired of denying my own happiness. I'm trying to let the emotions pour in. I'm going to let myself be perfectly happy. I'll let myself be happy with this little crush. It might be a good idea to let my hormones get the best of me now.

Be happy and stay happy everyone!

The Search for ITP

I got home late because some of my friends and I wanted to watch the coronation night of The Search for the Ideal Thomasian Personality. Hormones were raging last night from both sides of the fence. Who could blame us? There were a bunch of beautiful people walking back and forth on stage and they were doing so enough to make hearts race.

I'm extending my congratulations to Ms. Nursing and Mr. Pharmacy for winning the pageant. Ms Nursing definitely deserve the title. She's been the epitome of beauty and elegance throughout the entire night. She so looks like a beauty queen.

Our class got to see a bunch of the candidates during the grand launching last month so we had an idea of the candidates we wanted to win. Mr. Nursing was a shoo-in but we got the surprise of our lives when he wasn't in the top 5 and Mr. Accountancy was. It wasn't right in my opinion. And even if both Mr. & Ms. Arts & Letters didn't make it into the top 5, I can say that they've held theirselves together and made our Artlet community proud. Congrats to both of you! And Mr. AB won Best in Sports Wear. He must've looked good because we did not get the chance to see him.

The person that caught the women's attention that night was Mr. Architecture. The women went wild when he got out for the casual wear and he had on this white button down shirt and then we got to see his six pack. Yes ladies he has a six pack abs. I'm getting a little flustered talking about this because that guy is definitely HOT. Too bad I forgot his name though. He looked like a Ken doll actually. He's still smokin though. HAHA He actually had his own little world when they were all called on stage to announce the winners. He had on earphones and he was dancing on stage. I usually see him around campus with these big earphones so I guess he's a big music fan. He was goofing around with the candidates. A bit of a show off I have to say.

Mr. Science was a complete cutie as well. I loved the way he strutted his stuff in the casual wear as well. He looked amazing. He is a little bishounen though which I think works for him. Ms. CFAD looked amazing. Chesca did it justice and I'm still jealous of her bod. I knew her since we became classmates in Women's Fitness in our first year. Crazy girl actually. HAHA

It was a good night filled with beautiful people. I congratulate the winners. Isn't it obvious that I like Mr. Archi?! HAHA

I wonder who'll get people's hearts racing next year...

Two Post Day

This is going to be a day where I post two entries because I got in late last night and my dad was using the PC so I did not have the chance to use it. I was out all day. I already know what I'm going to talk about in my other entry but now let's see...

I'm going to use this entry as a little planner for this weekend filled with academic responsibilities...

Journ: nothing (thank God)
RC: nothing as well
Philo: study for quiz
Bio: nothing too (yehey!)

Scl: organize report & study for quiz
Eng: nothing
Math: project
Hist: critique

Looks a little slow but the project and critique for Math and History will be taking up a lot of my time. I should be starting on that now... I'll be back a little later for my second post.

Post-Valentine Cheer Through Love Quotes

You know time moves too fast when one day everyone was so hyped about Valentines then the next thing you see on the news is about Chinese New Year. Anyway, I'm still the little busy bee today but I finally was able to get home before 3 in the afternoon. I'm happy about that because it's been about a week since I've been home in time to grab a quick nap. I should be studying for my Bio quiz tomorrow but I'll do that after I take a bath. Why don't I spread a little post-Valentines cheer through cute, romantic quotes?

But before I do that I just want to greet Rembert a very Happy Birthday!!! Oh my ang tanda mo na! HAHA Just kidding...

Okay here we go:

--Somewhere deep within your heart there is someone that you're dying to forget but also living to remember.

--The only way to find true happiness is to risk being completely cut open.

--Girl: Ok, I have a question for you. Boy: Alright ask me… Girl: What do you see when you look in my eyes? Boy: You honestly wanna know? Girl: Yeah... Boy: My future…

--It's the way whenever I see him I smile. The way he's not embarrased to talk about me to his friends and after less than a day of not seeing each other, he says "I missed you." It's the way that he holds me close and rubs my back and the way I feel safe with his arm slipped around my waist. It's the way I can lean into him and all my problems melt away... but most of all, it's the way he's so imperfect… that he's perfect.

--The best feeling in the world is when you can be a million miles away from him and you can still picture his perfect smile…

--You leaned to me, put your hand on my chest, and kissed me. It was quick... kind of like a habit? You know? Like we'd do it every day for the rest of our lives. That was the last time you kissed me... (Grey’s Anatomy)

--The freshman girl, oh so shy, is staring at the sophomore boy. The sophmore boy, head in a whirl, sits and watches the junior girl. The junior girl, in her red Sudan, is checking out the senior. When secretly, the senior boy is in love with the freshman kid.

--You know he loves you when someone else makes you laugh and he smiles for the simple fact that you're laughing.

--Maybe you’re just scared because for once someone actually wants to be with you.

--To continue loving somebody even though there’s no chance of that love ever thriving... that’s romance.

--When he’s nearby my entire body knows it…

--They say we're too young, but maybe they're too old to remember…

--There's a someone out there for everyone, except this is the worlds biggest game of hide and seek, and you bet that he found the best hiding spot he could find. And he's waiting for you to find him, or better yet, maybe he'll get tired of waiting and come find you.

--But young love is adorable, the kind where a boy will do anything to sit next to that girl he's had his eye on since the first day he met her.

This is for all those young lovers out there. Appreciate what you have. Some people would kill to have that.

Who Knew You Could Mix Valentines & Politics?

Happy Hearts Day everyone!!

This is going to be a quick one. I just wanted to greet you guys.

I find it surprising that today I did not bitch or moan about the whole holiday. I admit that I was cranky this morning but after PE I got my second wind and I was bouncing all over the place. That could be a result of all the sugar I consumed today though.

I want to thank Tets because she was sweet enough to give me a pick-me-up this morning. She gave me a Coke float out of nowhere. If ever you read this, I just want to say thank you. It helped my mood a lot.

My college buddies and I spent the afternoon hanging out at the Quadricentennial Park and talking about politics. It maybe a result of the meeting de avance that we attended in the morning but it did turn into great conversation. I can't help but think how grown up that actually sounded. Although the conversation we had earlier was more... I don't know how to explain that. Never mind.

I also got to see Pchan which was good. I was able to catch up with her a bit. I took her away from Clara and Dawn so we could make tsimis (sounds so conyo... HAHA).

I have to admit that today is the best Valentine's day. I guess that proves that it isn't all just about lovers. It could be about the friends we have in our lives... the good company that we keep. Oh and it doesn't hurt when you see a bunch of your crushes walking around today either. HAHA

Hope it was a good day for you guys!

Mental Voting

I was part of the class president's general assembly today at the Tan-Yankee Student Center and the assembly was held in order to talk about voter's rights. I'm an unlucky unregistered voter for reasons I shall say later.

It was very enlightening and mental voting is something I'll take into heart. I wasn't able to register because I did not want to. I felt apathetic toward the whole situation. I kept putting it off until the registration deadline came and went. I just did not want to do it.

Today I realized that I committed a big mistake. The speaker explained to us how we could become responsible voters. He wished we would see past the superficial qualities and vote for someone who could actually realize the hopes we have for the country, someone who wants to make a difference. He hoped that we've realized the value of taking our single vote seriously.

I admit to be a cynical person. I did not think that my vote would mean anything. But I realized that if every single person thought the same way as I do, then progress would be an impossible dream. It was a real eye opener. He left us with that whole mental voting thing that even if we couldn't vote we would just picture who we would want to see leading the country.

Since a lot of us were unregistered voter, he hoped that we would somehow influence those that can vote because we will be stuck with these officials for the next 3 years. That is what I'm doing now. I hope that those people who have the chance to vote. Please take care of that single vote. Take care of it and give it to someone you know deserves it. See past the superficial characteristics. So what if they could speak well or if they look good on television? Do they deserve to be re-elected? What have they done for the people except waste time on cases they can't seem to prove? Vote wisely is such a cliche but it is the truth. Our nation's progress depends on that single vote.

Now on a lighter note... here's something for the independent women out there. A little Valentine's gift for you ladies... click HERE.

Nothing Really

Christina Aguilera certainly belts it out. She's so amazing. I got home just in time to catch her sing out loud in the 49th Grammy Awards. Amazing! I still have goosebumps. The Grammy moment was pretty cool as well. They had this girl sing with Justin Timberlake. She was chosen before two other contestants. It was a great performance as well.

I just got home from dinner with the family at Shangrila West. I am so full and sleepy so this would be especially quick. My little cousin Terence is just so adorable. I spent time with him tonight and I just wanted to hug and kiss him. He is just so cute! I miss the kid already.

This is one hell of a week so my energy to write anything profound, especially since Valentines are just two days away, has completely left me. I'm pretty much a slave of my academic responsibilities right now.

God I really need sleep. I'm going now.

Totally Useless

It's 9 in the morning and my brother's looming beside me already. I just have to fulfill my obligation.

I should still be asleep because we gt home at 2:30 in the morning but I'm up because my academic obligations are nagging me as well. My brother's grunting doesn't help the cause one bit. Learn to wait man.

This entry is totally useless. I'm so sleepy that I can't even think of anything intellectual to write about. I spent half of my day yesterday watching Friends. I also got to see Sky High (finally). The only reason I wanted to see that was because Steven Strait was there. All I can say is that he is so HOT.

My brother will blow a fuse if I don't leave this PC now. Bye!

Busy Weekend, Busy Week

I'm using this oppurtunity to organize my thoughts on everything I need to accomplish this weekend... I won't be home this afternoon so I won't have the oppurtunity to blog.

Now let's see what do I need to do...

Journ: Study for quiz
RC: Nothing (thank God)
Philo: Continue reading essays
Bio: Nothing (I do need to borrow an anatomy book though)

Scl: Watch an Inconvenient Truth for report
Eng: Prepare backdrop and questions for Panel Discussion
Stat: Begin proj
Hst: Finish taking notes on Stories from the Margins

PE: Get music for Jive

I'll be doing a lot of reading and stuff this weekend. My head hurts from all the activities I'll be doing this week. I have to go and start on the backdrop for English.

St. Thomas More Lecture

I'm here to fulfill my blogathon obligations. I suddenly thought that it would be really good for my academic career if I am as dedicated to it. Anyway, I just got home from attending our faculty's St. Thomas More Lecture in the Thomas Aquinas Research Center Auditorium. The speaker they invited to conduct the lecture was National Artist Bienvenido Lumbera. He talked about literature and history.

It was a bit boring to be honest but it was also intellectually stimulating. I enjoyed the open forum more than the actual lecture. He's an amazing man. I admire him for all his done.

I remember someone asked him what a young writer could do in order to gain his success. He just laughed it off and said that it would be disastrous and impossible because before you actually get something done you are already expecting too much from it. I agree with that advice. It's like counting your chicks before the eggs hatch. Something I know we should all avoid.

I'll be going now so I could return to real life adventures and problems. Until tomorrow, bye!

The Sims Stories

There's a new game from The Sims franchise and it's called The Sims Stories. I'm so excited! I can't wait to get my hands on them. There are more information here.

I enjoy playing that game so much. I've always had this fascination with dolls and dollhouses and anything related to me creating lives for these toys. It seems like it's bringing out my controlling tendencies. But I see it as my way of making this life I would have wanted to live just objectified in these games.

Ever since the game has been introduced a few years back I can't get enough of it. My childhood wishes came true in this game. Some people I know find it boring but I don't mind really. We have our own choices right? It is just a great past time for me.

Now do any of you love the game as well?

Who I Thought I Was

Time has this wierd and sometimes obnoxious way of letting me know that I've changed. I may or may not have grown but I can definitely say that I've changed. I can't really pinpoint the changes but I know I have.

I've been existing on this earth for 18 years now and I know that I don't fully understand it. I don't plan on trying to solve all its mysteries (but I would love to get in on some of them) and I'm just observing the alterations that spring on me once in awhile. It makes me think of this song by Jonathan Rice entitled Kiss Me Goodbye that has this line:

Does anybody else here feel half alive?
Drifting time and this song makes me realize of the changes in me. And I can't help by raise my hand and say, "Yes I feel half alive..." or at least I still somehow feel that way. Maybe I can never get rid of that feeling but I do know that my eyes are open now.

I have been "wake walking" through parts of my life. I went with the flow. There is nothing wrong with being flexible and being able to bend over and back when people ask you to sometimes but that shouldn't be a permanent part of one's life. There is a chance that when you allow yourself to be swayed by the crowd, you will be swept away by it. I admit to having been swept away in some instances in my life...

I don't want to end up a broken girl. I did what any sane human might do. I said no. I'm not willing to dive head first into something I can't commit my whole heart to. I'll be cheating myself and those people around me. My Philo prof said that freedom is only manifested when one participates. But this time I beg to disagree with him. I know that I won't give my best when I'm faced by something I don't want to do.

Does this mean that I'm just scared to enter into this supposed new chapter in my life? Perhaps. Look at it through my perspective, I just went through another door. I chose not to participate in this certain situation to engage in another one. I don't want to be a pushover. Now I am ready to be anyone I want to be.

Time's wierd this way. I thought I was this type of person but I turn out to be someone totally different. It took me this long to realize it. It took me this long to finally go against the facade that has been built for me.

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Now on a different note. I joined Blogathon 2007 that started last February 3. Since I got in on the action late, it means that I would blog at least once a day from February 7 to March 7. Why you may ask? Because I can. Let's see what thoughts I could conjure up over this time. Check it out if you want to.

I Want To Be Made...

I've been exposed to beauty contests and MTV's show Made this past few weeks and it got me into thinking about what I wanted to be "made into". Made is a show where you are transformed over a period of time into something you are totally not. It is like you're made do something you'd never imagine you'd do.

Now if I were on the show I thought that I want to be made into a BEAUTY QUEEN. Why? Well, it is so far from who I actually am. Let's just say that I'm not equipped to become one. I so do not have the proper mind set for it.

I'm not graceful, polished and I'm pretty weak when it comes to impromptu speaking. Oh and I do not have the kind of talent that could be used for these competitions... I can't sing to save my life, my dancing is a little "Ellen-like"... maybe I can read a poem or something... HAHA I forgot another thing... I'm only 5'4" and don't get me started on my physique!

It would be probably be a lot of fun... and a lot of butt spray... and a lot of exercise (something I am in dire need of).

I think it is just great that these teens are given a platform to try something they would have never imagined they would do. Now I'm trying to imagine myself with a crown...