TAGGED!

I was tagged by Kxia and now I want to tag: Rianne, Sushi, Rembert, Louise and Celina and all those other people who want to answer this. Just view my source.

This is really wierd... HAHA

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!

How are you feeling today? Songs In My Pocket (Bethany Joy Lenz)
Will you get far in life? Tiny Little Fractures (Snow Patrol)
How do your friends see you? Take It All Away (Ryan Cabrera)
Will you get married? Disintegration (Jimmy Eat World)
What is your best friend's theme song? Before He Cheats (Carrie Underwood)
What is the story of your life? Rest In Pieces (Saliva)
What was high school like? Love Will Tear Us Apart (Fall Out Boy)
How can you get ahead in life? Can't Stop (MoZella)
What is the best thing about your friends? Beautifully Broken (Ashlee Simpson)
What is today going to be like? Anything But Me (Lindsay Lohan)
What is in store for this weekend? Build God, Then We'll Talk (Panic! At The Disco)
What song describes you? I Can't Steal You (Matthew Ryan)
To describe your grandparents? Full Of Herself (Gavin DeGraw) (this is cruel...)
How is your life going? My Way Home (Citizen Cope)
What song will they play at your funeral? Falling (Teddy Geiger)
How does the world see you? The Voice Within (Katharine McPhee)
Will you have a happy life? Buttons (PussyCat Dolls)
What do your friends really think of you? Mixed Tape (Jack's Mannequin)
Do people secretly lust after you? Amnesia (MoZella)
How can I make myself happy? A Dream Is A Wish Your Heart Makes (Disney Circle Of Stars)
What should you do with your life? If It's Alright (Lindsay Lohan)
Will you ever have children? Clear My Head (Ivy)

Spacing Out To The Max

I am spacing out again when I'm supposed to be studying... Pirates of the Caribbean is on so that isn't helping either. So I just stopped. Good thing I am just reviewing notes... I'm still procrastinating... I still feel lazy. My mind is all over the place. It is probably in my nature... I do have to control that...

High School Musical is premiering tonight on Disney... I am definitely going to watch that but I am torn between that and the MTV Movie Awards tonight... I want to watch both though... I am a good multitasker... maybe that is why my head is all over the place.

I really need to clear my thoughts... I'm not whiny as my last entry. I just feel like I'm all over the place. I need to get my head back on its place... I want to scream... this is one of the times when I don't like to think too much. I can't concentrate. Okay total useless entry... I better go and try to gather my thoughts... and I am still watching Pirates.

Whining All The Way

"Everything is f'ed up straight from the heart
tell what do you do when it all falls apart
gotta pick myself up where do I start
'cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart..."

Words spoken true by two spunky singers. I like The Veronicas. Punk meets pop. I like it. Pop has always been a huge part of my musical preference so please spare me the jokes. I just like it. I said the word like three times in this paragraph. Moving on...

I just need a break. I'm not burning out yet. Although I am tired. Too much studying has passed these last few days and I haven't even been back at school for a week (...inwardly cursing one professor... whatever.)! And now I am also going to stop ranting about that and revert my attention back to the four lines up there...

I love the lyrics of this song check it out when you have time it is entitled, When It All Falls Apart by The Veronicas. I love how honest the lyric actually is. I especially love the first line up there. And those four lines somehow found a way to get under my skin tonight while I'm trying to push away an all too familiar feeling.

I do not know how I get myself in situations like this. I let men get under my skin too quickly (okay I mean in the emotional sense). I hate these games. I hate thinking that there are even games. I hate how I am just probably reading too much into this. I hate how I think too much. I hate how I worry so much of things that I have no control over whatsoever, like my feelings perhaps?

Okay way too much hate in one paragraph but I am feeling confused, physically and emotionally tired especially by people who just can't say what they want. Who just can't verbally say WHO they want... okay this is probably a stab at my own back because that is my number one challenge. I guess I'm just tired of playing games. Those four lines up there really say a lot about how I feel about him, them and everyone else and the bridge of this song fits me to a T too:

"I need intervention
attention to stop this temptation to scream..."

I just... well I don't know what I want... maybe the end of these games. I have used that word three times in this entry when I don't even know if I am playing with anyone at the moment, I just might be playing with myself (that sounds so wrong in so many levels). I just don't get signals really. And YOU most likely don't read this but I just want to say that we have been at this thing, whatever this is for I don't know four years already. You purposely just have to show up everywhere. God, why I am I even letting you get to me? You and Mr. Perfect (fine I have two guys I waste my thoughts on... they don't even care and here I am rambling on about them... argh!) are just... I don't even know what to say... except:

"Everything is f'ed up straight from the heart
tell what do you do when it all falls apart
gotta pick myself up where do I start
'cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart..."

Why??? I probably should sleep all of this stuff off... school has to come first right? I know but I hate how they get into my head and stay there for the rest of the day. It's night time so maybe they would vanish for the time being. But do I even feel the same way as I think...??? sorry talking to myself.

I really better go. I need my sleep and I have one more school thing to do... I need a vacation from everything already... I'm so weak.

Out Of The Ordinary

Today started as an ordinary day. I felt like I have been going to class for a month already with the amount of work handed to us by the professors. I didn't think anything extraordinary was supposed to happen. I expected to fly by class without being called for recitation (which happened! HAHA) but my classmates sprang this huge surprise on me. They elected me president of our block!

I was so caught off guard. Way beyond anything I expected. I still can't seem to wrap my finger around it. Why'd you have to leave Szusza?!! HEHE All I can say now is that it would definitely be an interesting year. O.o

Am I way in over my head? Probably. But I guess that really is life's way of reminding us that we are alive. It catches us at the opportune moment, for life itself anyway. It hides behind the simplest things. Behind every aspect of our lives.

I do take this as a compliment. Thank you for the belief in me. I would do what I can. This seriously is going to be an interesting year. I can feel it in my veins! HAHA

Speaking of surprises...

I really want to say thank you to KXIA for making this layout for me. I didn't ask her to make me this one but being a kind friend as she is, she made this for me. She's my Hollywood insider friend! I miss her already! Can't wait to see HSM 2... thanks so much Kxia... this means a lot to me. Now I have a piece of you on my blog...

I'm Not Stressed But I'm Getting There

Okay the title says it all because it is the first weekend back and I have at least 50 pages to read for Monday... courtesy of 3 out of my 4 professors. But I am taking this as a challenge and I'm studying. I am not putting it off because as nerdy and grade conscious as this sounds, I want to maintain my grade point average.

This is going to be real quick because I'm supposed to be getting ready right now to go to the library to photocopy more readings for aforementioned subjects. Hopefully I won't pull out my hair out of frustration anytime soon.

There are so many things I want to talk about but those have to be put at the backburner this moment. I can't slack off especially since I won't be home tomorrow because of my family's Mall of Asia thing. I don't want to go because I still have to study but I can't convince them to make me stay home (I'm that dedicated to studying right now, I try to stay out of malls, my television viewing has lessened considerably). My parents aren't even going but they want us to go! Oh well... it is my brother's birthday tomorrow, I guess I really have to. I still think I'm wasting so much time.

I have to eat breakfast now but before I go I just want to say that it is good not to feel so lost anymore. I am no longer fresh meat. I want to wish all freshmen good luck and I am happy to say that I have been there and done that.

I'm Okay

I haven't posted for some time because I have been stuck in a rut, emotionally and creatively. I've been hiding from my fears you could say. The type of fear that you have to face no matter how you try to avoid it. Anyway, two movies and a TV show sort of lifted my spirits this week while I was moping around and drowning my fears through PC games and television. The movies include Vanity Fair and High School Musical (Kxia would agree with me over this, we both love this movie, already downloading the soundtrack Kxia!) and One Tree Hill (finally Brooke and Lucas get together! Pretty emotional episode... loved it). I would love to talk about these things in another entry...

I have gratitude for them for snapping me out of my miserable week. I just felt so constrained, suffocated, helpless and I was able to pull through in one piece. And what better timing since classes begin for me this week. I'm a little excited but not really... mixed emotions. I'm a Sophomore once again but this time I'm turning 18 and I am not in high school anymore although I want to return especially after watching HSM! HAHA

I just wanted to drop by and say I'm not dead (wait that's Pink's new album right?) and I'm okay... we should all be okay. We shouldn't sweat the stuff we can't control and worrying is an impractical use of our precious time... I'm sort of talking to myself in this last paragraph but those who can relate well good for you... have a good day everyone! And I haven't said this in awhile:

May summer always be in your hearts...