Fetish...

I'm a in such a different head space right now... my ideas and the things that I am supposed to do are totally clashing in my mind... let us just say disorganization is running my mind a bit...

Hmmm... well add to that disorganization is my own personal drama... well the drama that I created anyway. Especially the drama I created with my forever non-existent love life... I don't know why I fret about it so much... I think about it so much because of the people or maybe because of the shows I watch or the movies... I guess that is my fetish... so it affects my way of thinking... hmmm... wait that is the current topic in my Journalism class... well actually it deals more with violence because our next selection for discussion is this piece called "Movie, Delinquecy & Crime" well something like that anyway and how it affects people to do criminal stuff... but in my case it sort of affects my way of viewing my life and what it has and lacks... it is pathetic I know... but as I said... I am obsessed with it...

It is pretty wierd to define obsession with love because it is in my opinion on the borderline of creepy... hehe but still I am still the girl who believes that there is this one person for everyone... but I haven't seen this guy yet and it gets unnerving and I know you are all becoming a bit annoyed at how many times I repeat this... but as I said before this is my world so this topic pretty much revolves around my world really... I am forever a sucker for cheesy stuff... : )

Well, I have been blabbing a lot and there are still a lot of blabberings going on inside my head and I would probably be letting them out at one point or another... and well I choose another because I have to go now... haha I'm still watching OC and I still have to do my Literature paper. Bye!

*kisses*
nikki

My Head Is Spinning

Oh man my head is spinning a bit... don't ask me why though... maybe I'm just tired... well I didn't do much today... got up at 8... that is an improvement I get up at 7 during school days because even though I don't have classes up until 11 or 1 I still have to study in the morning... and because well we didn't have classes today! Yeah! haha then I just got ready because Pia and I planned to go to National Bookstore because she wanted me to accompany her to get the book she ordered... all was going well until there was the rally in front of Sto. Domingo that forced us to walk all the way from Sto. Domingo to my home... Pia had to be picked up at my house because of that riot... which by the way wouldn't really solve anything... but the good thing was at least we were able to catch up a bit... I miss all my friends... and I will echo Rianne and say that I MISS HER TO SOOO MUCH!!!! It is hard to stay in touch but we all do all we can because of course we love each other so much that is why we work so hard... : )

I am sort of adjusting into college life a bit... although it is still a bit surreal though... wow I am a college student... and I just saw the episode of Laguna Beach again where it was their graduation and well that made me nostalgic about a lot of things... I have been through so much the last 4 years in high school... it was fun, unnerving, heartbreaking, loving, hilarious, well it was all just a huge mess! haha I do miss the security of high school but there is something so cool about the excitement of college... life wise, it is so cool, love life wise, nothing changed! haha some of my friends have these guys "hovering" around them haha... but don't get me wrong I am not bitter... I just find it funny... and besides I know that hello it is still too early... it will come to me when it chooses to come to me... right?! Still single, happily single, just enjoying and at the same time discovering the meaning of my life... I am actually a bit happy that I got through high school without any attachments i.e., boyfriend because here is a whole new world filled with cuter boys! haha I'm going crazy again... well cuter boys that either have girlfriends or don't care for my existance... I told you insanity! haha

Anyway before I go because my head is still seriously spinning... I am just so happy that SAN ANTONIO WON!!! WOOHOO!!! haha until the next entry! Goodbye! Goodnight!

*kisses*
nikki

Studying... What's New?

There is no shortcut to success... what a bummer... well... still bitchin and moanin about that whole PGC thing... and we have another class tomorrow... great... can't wait... you can tell the sarcasm can't you?! haha

Our faculty had the walking tour and freshman orientation today... by shoulders hurt and so does my feet but it is still cool to not have a day in class! haha and good thing we don't have classes on Friday! What we just wished was that we had the orientation tomorrow! Oh well...

I find it really cute how the call us the AB Arts and Letters students ARTLETS haha it is like being little kids of some animals haha... it is cool though...

This blog has been a substitution for my private journal because first I still don't have money and I don't have time to get one... well this is a journal too... haha

By the way, saw a bunch of cute guys today! haha but I was surprised but annoyed because I saw this guy who was an exact look-a-like of A SQUARED I won't say his real name... my friends know who this guy... he looked the same really but this guy had longer hair and he was with us at the freshman orientation... man... memories... can't survive the pain but can't live without them... I will go now... still have to study... oh well...

*kisses*
nikki

Ironically Funny

I really don't like my PGC class... PGC means Philippine Government and Constitution... our prof is so argh! Each class which consists of an hour and thirty minutes... two times a week he wants to spend 30 of graded recitation... and guess what he spent the entire class for it! Good thing I wasn't called! haha but still I don't like that! I don't like this class!

Oh well... nothing I can do... that is why I don't look forward to Tues and Thurs add the fact that I have classes until 7 in the evening... anyway... I should be studying the book right now but screw it for a bit... haha

I'm still going through a confusing time in my life... well I guess that is pretty much what life is about... a span of time filled with confusion and looking for the source of confusion and just simply trying to understand it... anyway... well, I was wondering about this one thing... how come when someone has been part of your life, when you see that person and even in a small way he acknowledges your presence... how come something that small could seem so big or could seem so significant? I don't get it really... how can that small gesture fill your mind so much that every possible moment it pops into your head and it makes you a bit happy but at the same time sad at how insignificant that actual thing was... it is just so ironically funny... I'm not really a fan of that feeling but that is one of the most common things in my everyday life... sucks doesn't it... the building up of anticipation and the simplicity of pulling the rug right under your feet... oh well... I have to go now though... still have to study for that darn PGC! grrr... good thing we don't have classes tomorrow... we have this walking tour and freshmen orientation at ust... bye for now!

*kisses*
nikki

I don't have a new private journal, I don't have time to write and it sucks because I have a lot of stuff in my mind...

I miss my friends... they are not just my higschool friends... they are my barkada (namely, Ria, Che, Pchan, Jhe, Me-Mae, Chell, Anntots, Ion, Jo)... well I miss Rianne. I haven't talked to her in a long time, well chat with her but you get my point. I miss Weymong! hehe I miss Mama Kris! I miss Rembert! Wala na yung kakulitan ko minsan sa chat. We saw each other yesterday pero we had no time to chat! Kamusta ka na dude?!

I miss a lot of my highschool friends... it is not that college is a bad experience... I just miss them... we haven't seen each other as whole... it sucks really... but this is our reality...

Man, I just miss a lot of things really... but then I guess this is change... oh well... I have to go now... bye!

*kisses*
nikki

Break From Nothing

I am going to take a break from studying... well I am pretty much taking a break without even starting... well at least I finished my two Theology papers last night... I want you all to take a look at what I have to study for Monday and Tuesday alone...

History - Study about Prehistory & the Dawn Of Civilization including use of metals, development of agriculture and the invention of writing...
Journalism - Ironically I am also studying about Writing or should I say the First Revolution which is Writing and the Second Revolution which is Printing. Add the fact that I have to make a paper for Monday on the important events that led to printing. And review the Second Revolution for the class discussion and again review them both because our prof was hinting a quiz... great... just great...
Math - Just have to review the first chapter on Set & Real Numbers. Math is my weakest subject so I have to review this one for the discussion on Monday.
Theology - Good thing I finished the two papers on "Who is God in my life" and "My Personal Credo" but I still have to make a gospel reflection of the mass tomorrow.

These are for Monday by the way...

Literature - For this I have to make another paper on Literature and Its Different Branches for Tuesday...
Philippine Government & Constitution - This is my subject with the terror teacher... each class the first thirty minutes will be a graded recitation... and he wants us to be prepared for Tuesday to read about the introduction of this book entitled Textbook on the Philippine Constitution... and the intro is pretty LONG!

Good thing we don't have anything for Philosophy & English because I can't take it... I know this is just the beginning but I have been in the Central Library so many times in the last 3 days! I think I was in that place 5 times for just 3 days! Well this is my job really... I have to study hard... I have to make it... but it does take its toll on me... it gets pretty tiring... and I am just complaining after three days! Oh well... I have to go... I'm researching for my History class!

*kisses*
nikki

First Day Craziness...

Man it has been such a crazy day! The very first day of college... can't believe I am in college already... the day has sort of been like a quick jolt of shock because it just went by so fast without the realization that I have so much work to do! Well actually now that I think of it four out of the five professors I met today... that includes pe have an assignment for us! What is ironic is the only class that didn't give anything to do is Math!! I find that funny really... I had PE at 7 in the morning which was through by 8:30 because it was only orientation day or whatever. I went home! haha I was home by 8:45 or 9 just in time to catch the NBA Finals game 3!!! Although I was able to finish it because I was out the door by 10 or so because I had a class at 11... I will be able to watch it later though! haha I hope the Spurs win!!! GO SAN ANTONIO SPURS!!!!! I am such a huge Manu Ginobili fan!!! haha *kilig* haha I'm going crazy... I just discovered my love for basketball this summer and the game that really got to me is the NBA... so cool! My dad finds it funny though! haha they couldn't believe that their "girl" watches NBA! hehe

Anyway I had a class from 11 to 3... my first class was History where we were told to study about the pre-historic period but just like what Nica my classmate said that what pre-historic period! Which country!!! Then I had Journ 201 which is diving us into books already are prof wants us to read pages 1-42 of Irving Fang's book, A History Of Mass Communication: Six Information Revolutions... man I need this by Friday and the problem is we were going to photocopy the pages but we couldn't find the book! So I have to go to school a little early tomorrow but good thing my class is at 1... I have to get a photocopy of that book!!! Then at least my Math class didn't make us do anything... then we had Theology where our prof is making us make an essay entitled "Who Am I?" and again I need this by Friday!!!! I HAVE A LOT TO DO RIGHT NOW! So I guess I have to keep this really short... I'll be going... oh but first I saw Isam haha he used to be my crush back well back when I was in grade 5 up to second year! Rianne knows who he is! Grabe Rianne he still looks the same! Ang gwapo!! haha

Anyway I really have to go! Goodbye!!

*kisses*
nkki

Free Swag...

Just two more nights I'm out of here... complete bummer... this makes me want my own room more... haha I'm moanin' about me moving out of my tito's room after I girlified it a bit... hehe as if that word even exists... hehe it just sucks... but what else can I do really... nothing... haha

Anyway I was watching Oprah last night and it was entitled Oprah Baby because she was hosting as what she calls the "world's biggest baby shower" because it was for this pregnant moms in a military base at the States I forgot the name but man those mothers were pampered so much! They got a lot of free swag... and their babies are so lucky! haha

Speaking of free swag I was watching TRL a while ago with their trl prom week although this episode is a bit old because it was last May 20... my world revolves around the tv these days! haha anyway I am so envious because the studio audience got so much free swag! Which included this cool mp3 player which I so seriously need!!! I am so envious!! haha

Oh well... I'll just be going now! Oh by they way although Chell doesn't read this just wanted to greet her a HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!! Best of luck for you and Jeipi wish you both all the happiness you deserve... wow... it has been a pretty bumpy year for this two... haha anyway... got to go... bye!!!

*kisses*
nikki

Back To The Parental Units...

I only have two more days in this room because my tito is returning from Australia... which sucks... because I have been living in his room for the past month and a half or so... so it is back to the parental units bedroom... haha it sucks... I want my own place! A ridiculous request I know because I can't support myself yet... haha

Then there are a about two more weeks before the classes start and I am pretty nervous and anxious about that... can't say that I am really looking forward to it.. okay there is a part of me that does... but the nervous part is winning the battle...

I don't know what else is left to say... hmm... the new Ms. Universe is really pretty! hehe and it is cool that Ms. Philippines won Ms. Photogenic... hehe *PINOY PRIDE!* haha

I really can't think of anything else to say...

*kisses*
nikki