I Get The Hint

There is such a thing as acceptance. I've learn to accept a lot of things in life. I accept things not going my way when it comes to school, family life, friends, and any other circumstance in life. Things regarding my "love life" aren't any different either. I've accepted a lot of things with that regard too.

Right now isn't really any different. My beloved college buddies keep pressing the issue on this one guy. A guy I've accepted as a friend without any of the strings attached anymore. You see I got the hint that things won't really go beyond the friendship point. Nothing more, nothing less people.

It was a bit hard to accept it at first but the more I tried to hide from the reality the more it haunted me. It just isn't meant to be. I can't really say that it is a resignation of some sort. I just woke up to the truth.

A lot of us get stuck in lala land because it's more comfortable or happy there but that gets pretty harmful. Take it from a semi-permanent resident. Those illusions are nice for a temporary period but once it becomes a normal part of you then that can get pretty destructive. It is not wise to blur the boundary of the world you want and actual reality.

I'm not really bitter about the situation. I've just learned to live with that reality. You can't place a puzzle piece into a spot where it wasn't supposed to be in. We're just not meant to be in each other's lives that way.

I wrote about this because of a bunch of reasons I really don't want to talk about except this one thing. The whole situation was brought to my attention by this song of Gavin DeGraw entitled Glass. Here are the lyrics:

Fool you made the girl fall in love
you said those beautiful things
she thought you spoke things you mean
Caress her skin like it's glass
she hears your voice making plans
and she just breaks in your hands
You don't wanna see somebody beg
as you feel her heart surrender
you begin to fall
How do you say that something's through
when it never even started
at least not for you
You breathe her air and you leave
you keep your mind on yourself
and lie the glass on the shelf
After the heavenly speech
your body throws holy heat
the angels sing when our eyes meet
It wasn't a lie but it wasn't true
I just wanted to make you feel good
just wanted you near
I wasn't prepared I wasn't thinking of you
that you could actually love me
it never should have started
She's dreaming back on the past
every opinion agreed
doesn't know what to believe
It must have been for a cause
our lives have so many doors
don't think about him anymore
But it was the kiss, it took me away
it's like he knew that I am fragile
she said he handled me like glass
and it hurts but it's what I deserve
because I should have been more careful
with the others that I handled
she said I should have been more
I should have been more
and knowing this I know
that he'll get his
but I don't want the man to suffer
cause deep down I know that he's glass too
but it really doesn't matter
until it's happening to you
everybody breaks
everybody breaks
sometimes

*Lyrics taken here