Sucks

I am blank... I am confused... here is my pessimist side and well this is my site so I can say anything I want haha : P

I thought I heard the last of him (rianne don't say I told you so... please) well I know I will still see him but I didn't think it would affect me this bad... I sort of expected him to come yesterday and I know I would have been disappointed to see him but still what I felt wasn't good... I can't even describe it!

Man I just don't know what to do anymore... this is bad for me really... but I can't keep away... I feel a little bit on the low today... it sucks... he still seems like the same person and that is why it sucks... God! I just don't know anymore!

Oh well
nikki